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Monday, December 27, 2010

Moving on, is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard

Hello readers.

I know I'm supposed to wrap up about 2010 but then, I feel I need to post this up before posting about 2010.

Anyways, I'm on holidays right now, from the 12th Dec till 12th Jan, and trust me, this will be the only LONG holidays I'll have. After that, another torturing 6 months, but InsyaAllah, I can get through this with the help of my beloved family and friends.

To be able to move on, one has to learn to forgive not only the person (or people) who have done one wrong but also oneself ~ Eugenia Tripputi


So, that's not the point, the thing is here, during the holidays, this is the ONLY time I could catch up with my high school friends, which I still feel they are my friends. Till then I realized something. and things has happened the way it happened last year, and that gave me a shock.

I mean, all this while, I've been running back to you, or lets just say it in Malay, terhegeh-hegeh.
As if I was the one who really wants to patch up with the relationship. THE ONLY ONE PLAYING A PART IN THIS STUPID WORTHLESS FRIENDSHIP!

Now, since 2011 is coming, I'm making a new year resolution, I'll only give my attention to those who deserve it, and no one else. Cause I feel so helpless seeing, my effort of making the friendship to happen again is going down the drain. and I shall no longer cry thinking about it.
I have one aim now, AND ONE AND ONLY.

Forgiveness and letting go are steps on our road back to happiness. ~ Tina Dayton

I want my happiness back in this world, and with the help of Allah, InsyaAllah, I will. But I guess, things just won't work out between us anymore.
Whatever has happened between us, let's just forgive and forget, cause I want to open a new book and doesn't want the memories we have to keep lingering around this new chapter of life.

Goodbye and best of luck to you.

I have my dignity.

Courage is not the absence of fear, but simply moving on with dignity despite that fear. ~Pat Riley

Saturday, December 4, 2010

He who cannot remember the past is doomed. DOOMED! - John Howard

Hello people (and hello Mr Lim if you're reading this :) )

I'm officially done with AS, and hopefully I don't have to repeat any of the papers, Amin. :)

How are you guys out there? Hopefully you're doing fine.

Anyways, this post is about the awesome birthday I had the other day.

Firstly, thank you for the all the wishes, either through facebook, texts, calls and even face to face wishes.
Thank you for the lovely bracelet and chocolate Neo, Vivian and Julia. :)
Thank you for being a great friend too. :D

It starts off the day before, Dad wished me first cause apparently Dad said,he might forget and I might be angry.
That night, Kakak and newly born baby, Sofea wished me through facebook. :)

Then, on the day itself, all the wishes come flooded my notifications and my phone
inbox and unfortunately my handphone got bared and didn't get to reply the texts.

Once I reached college early morning as usual, Mum will call, and she wishes me.
In college, Athina and Shu Han wished me, then comes all the wishes.

With mirth and laughter let old wrinkles come.
William Shakespeare


Received presents from lovely people.
Then, went lunch in Pappa Rich with classmates. :)



If you think its a small celebration, nothing much to be happy about, lets compare what happened the year before.

It was during biology paper, and I had accounts paper the day after, and that night, I stayed up doing accounts cause I had 3 hours account tuition once I finished my Biology paper.
and despite all the dramas that were going on, *which I can't mention it here*

So, definitely this year one makes a big difference to me. :)

and oh, thank you for the cake on the board Mr Lim. :)
is the thought that counts.




If you carry your childhood with you, you never become older.
Abraham Sutzkever



I was hoping for your wish, I guess you forgot. But how come you have forgotten, when you keep having memory of me? I guess the both of us haven't really let go of each other.

If you have it [Love], you don't need to have anything else, and if you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have.
Sir James M. Barrie


Next post: To wrap things up about 2010 :)

Thank you God, for everything. :)

Peter Pan the musical here I come!! :D

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

"Life is partly what you make it and partly the friends you choose." - T.Williams

Friends? How do you define them?

To me, they are the next best person to turn to after your parents/sisters/relatives.
I have the urge to write about this topic after calling Izza, my 9 years best friend.



Izza, someone who has bare to be with me for the past 9 years, someone I really really appreciate. I mean, remember, when we joined St John Ambulance, librarian and tennis together? Not to forget, all those dramas and dance performances we will always stick to each other no matter what kan? :')


You will always be there for me,to lend your ears, to advice, and your shoulders to lean and cry. I mean, you were the best friend I can never imagine to have before.
Yes, there were fights where we didn't talk and so on, but that makes our friendship stronger.





But back in 2008 and 2009, our distance becomes further and it seems to so far away and so hard to talk to you. I don't deny, I was busy with F1 and you too, were busy with your drama. I'm wrong if I deny I was jealous cause you got close to different clan and I was too.

A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same.
Elbert Hubbard



It becomes even more further when now, we are in different higher institution. Lesser conversation apatah lagi when we don't see each other that much.

But to be honest, I do miss everything we use to share.
Remember my birthday, once? We celebrated in Times Square, watched Deja Vu and ate steamboat. *yang I belanja tu?* haha

Remember, we were korean drama freaks, and we'll actually make it a topic when we see each other in school every morning. Though we were different in classes since Form 1 till Form 5. We still talk when we go recess, extra co-curricular activities, during assembly. Seriously, I miss those moments which I can't turn back the clock and enjoy it again. I just wish that our friendship still stays on and grow stronger every year.

We are no longer in the same school, but we make an effort to at least make up something out of our friendship.Instead of just telling my children in the future *kalau ada* who was my best best friend, I rather introduce you to them. Cause I still can't find anyone to replace you, till now, and hopefully you'll understand what I mean.

Till here first, hopefully you'll be reading this.
and happy belated birthday Izza!
*I wished I was celebrating your 18th birthday with you*




Friendship... is not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything.
Muhammad Ali

Sunday, October 31, 2010

November

Hello reeeeeeeeeaders :)

I'm back with another post. Its November already yawwww, meaning another 60 days more till 2011. *currently listening to the final countdown, tu yang semangat, haha*
So there is 1440 *1429 as I'm writing approx at 1100* more hours to spend for 2010. *30 more days for my birthday too, don't forget, haha*

and that also means I'm gonna make the end of 2010 for meaningful
for now, it'll be the battle with my fellow army dear pens and stationary with all useful information, facts and figures and with the enemy, questions.

and past year papers of course. :)

till then, have a great day *and months too* people. :)


Dayana's farewell party;cupcakes!; 26th Oct 2010


Dayana's farewell party; Dayana, Me and Ily; 26th Oct 2010

Quizzes

You are neat, clean and tidy. You don't like to be pushed around and you won't do something just because you're expected to. You don't live by the rules--you prefer to make up your own instead. If you are interested in an issue, you will find out more about it because you want to, not because you have been told to.

[Part 1] Self Confidence: 80% -> You're confident.
[Part 2] Sensory Perceptions: 67% -> Sensitive to stimulation around you.
[Part 3] Body Language: 50% -> You don't know how to use body language to your advantage yet.
[Part 4] Conversational Skills: 73% -> You can fit in with society.
[Part 5] Empathy For Others: 80% -> An extremely kind and warm person.

You are a typical girl, like the majority.



Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.



The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.



Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.



The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?



Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.



The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.



How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.



What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.



Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.



You value your friendships: 60%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.


The Mass Communicator
You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.


Your Sixth Sense Score: 77%
You are reasonable and won't get blown by temptations. However, you might miss some great opportunities.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

How come things didn't work out for us? :'(

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Narnia



I so wanna watch this. :)

Friday, October 15, 2010

Grateful :)

Hello there people.

I'll kick off this post with mum's quote, Kalau rezeki tu tak datang, tak de lah datang, tapi kalau datang tu, bergolek-golek.

I can't agree more. In fact, I need to thank Allah so so much for giving me a lot for these past few days. To think of it,thank you for everything, till this extend.

One moment, I actually thought that I don't deserve all this. At that moment, I realize I should be more grateful. Allah has been giving me so many chances, opportunity , rezeki, but only I was just too blind see nor to ego to admit.

But this comes with the dugaan too.
Hopefully, I can go through all of this, InsyaAllah.

Thank you so much for everything.
The loving family, wonderful friends, a great place to study, awesome health, and many many more.


To Mum, Dad and Sarah.
Love you lots.
Though I don't say it often , but deep down inside, I know you do know how much I love you all.

To dear friends,
Sue Ann, Afiqah, Vyen, Neo and Julia.
Thank you for being there for me.

To dear awesome classmates,
You guys are just awesome.
Loving the jokes we always have in class.

Till here peeps.
See ya around.


The most important people in life.

p/s: I just wish I could find someone and replace you in my heart. The wound is still there.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Oh helloooooo there!

Hello peeps, sorry for not blogging.
Its been too long I guess. * I forgotten the password actually, hee~*
I've been longing to write actually, despite of my not-so-good English.
But, I get distracted easily and yes, I am random, I post things up randomly, do something whenever I feel like it.
Hopefully, it won't happen again.
I'll treat this blog just like my previous ones that I had, InsyaAllah.

Anyways, how are you all? *cheh wah, macam ramai reader*
Hopefully you guys are alright. :)

Well, I started AS already, with Pure Maths 1. Alhamdulillah, so far so good.
That leaves me 12 more papers to go.*6 weeks to go* Patience is all I need right now, and yeah, I need to get myself away from distractions. *Not the distractions away from me*
I've never felt such stress, yesterday. Like seriously. Even SPM wasn't this bad.
I guess, too much high expectation after what happened for my SPM kan.

Alhamdulillah, getting a bit more relax today. *too relax actually*

Oh, oh. I'm driving to college already now!
* See, didn't I tell you, I jump to random topics*
Alhamdulillah, after 2 months of practice with mum beside, after 1829891291382198312983 of lectures in the car about safety, it does help.
I tend to be more extra careful, *cause I can actually hear how my mum will make noise if she is in the car*
Hopefully, I'll arrive college and home safely everyday, without a scratch at my car and me or other drivers and their cars too. Amin. :)
Truthfully speaking, I miss having mum beside, we always have this girl to girl talk when in the car.


One more random sub topic will be,
Dad kinda agree if I want to be an engineer, though I know in his heart his has high expectation on me, being a doctor in this family.
Honestly, though Dad kinda agree, I'm actually still confuse.
Only God knows what is best for me, InsyaAllah.
He'll give me sign to tell me what is. :)

Actually, I'm kinda disappointed at myself, tapi its okay, I'll keep it to myself.

Till here people, need to do Physics.

InsyaAllah, I'll update, whenever possible.
Here are some recent pictures .
Is just a reminder to myself, I still all of this to enjoy life. :)


3rd Sept 10'


Small makan-makan

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Raya 10'


Solat Berjemmaah


Ramadhan Donation

Sunday, June 27, 2010

:((

Something bad happen lately, and I won't say it here. But thanks for those who was with me.
Afiqah, Nissa, Sue Ann, Vivian, Neo, Julia, Shahir and Luqman.

Here is sth interesting, read on.

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch!
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.
8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.
12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.
35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

The love of my life

Hello people.

Well, here is a special post. for a special someone.
I always thought, I will never have him in my life, but you'll never know.

Mohd Danish Ikhwan b Moh Nor.

The one who always cheers me up, though I can't see him often. duh, we only see each other during holidays.

But with his looks, chubby face, round eyes, and for now he is bald, I still love him.
He can make me smile, even by looking at his face. :)
No words can describe that feeling.

Thanks dear Ikhwan for coming and visiting grandma today.
You are here, whenever you need you most. :)










Cute kan?
HAHA

Bye peeps. :DD

Friday, June 11, 2010

Semester One

and its the end of our semester one, Alhamdulillah.

along with the bad news , Kien is leaving us to a better school. Cardiff, UK.
Today, was his farewell. Right after Thinking Skills paper, we headed to Station Kopitiam for brunch, where Kien treat us. gosh, thanks Kien.



Anyways, that means I have 2 weeks holidays! Yay, fun- NOT. I think I'm gonna use this holiday to buck up my studies, especially Mathematics and Chemistry. Though I've been resting the whole day today, bad progress,bad, bad progress.

It worries me much when abang ask about my studies. "Cakap dengan Farah, take it easy."
InsyAllah, I will.

Since mama needs to train grandma's maid this week, so it will be the right timing to go back to SBS for a visit. or for an activity? haha. Maybe I'll drop by during St John or some library activities. Since Sarah has not start on her F1 project, neither do I. I even forget to jot down those new ideas I've got during Physics classes.

I was thinking to put up some things about college. But my brain has not rest much I guess, so I'll postponed it to the next post.

I'll end here, for now.
Here is one special message for you Kien,

Hey, thanks for being a great friend. I appreciate it so much, cause I get to know you for only like 3 months, and you appreciate me like sooooo much. The part that actually makes me feel much more appreciated is the part where, you actually sat beside me, had this one to one talk. You told me that, I was among your first few friends that you knew when you first came to college. and you said thanks for being such a good friend. Awww, thank you again Kien.

You were like the only boy in physics class. It feels great to know you , to talk to you , to discuss random stuff in the library. I'll miss those moments.

Best of luck in Cardiff. I know you will achieve your dreams and you'll be among the best! Take care. :)




Kien and me :)




The things we did
The things we said
Keep coming back to me
and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

Never Gone - Backstreet Boys

Friday, May 21, 2010

College and and and baju kurung! :P



Rachie, Syanas, Danisha, Neo and Vyen.



Ricky, Kai Seng, Kien and Fariz



My favourite picture of all. I miss Nissa badly though. :(


In college, I prefer wearing baju kurung whenever possible. Its obvious I guess, from the photos uploaded in facebook. Don't ask me why. I don't know too, haha. Nak kata back in secondary,I love wearing them, not quite. I prefer wearing pants where I gotta where them during St John with the nurse uniform and during PJ classes or even during foot frill practice.

But it isn't a problem kan? I don't quite get when people ask me why pakai baju kurung.

Driving? Well, I haven't been driving to college. Its kinda sad and depressing to talk about it. Maybe belum tiba masanya lagi. Be patient Farah. :I

So , that is what I could talk about college for now.There a loads more, not now alright. Pretty much , have to prepare for the upcoming semester exam. After that holidays! Thinking of going back to SBS. Been missing everyone, including the teachers.

When? Good question.
By the time I go, you guys would probably went back home. grrhh.
One day, determined! InsyaAllah.


Those were the days.

Till then, semester exam! :D



Learn and move forward. Every single time.

Friday, April 16, 2010

First, woots!

Hey peeps!

Yes, I am blogging again. when I should not.
But this is the only way I could think of , to practice writing. *yes, my English sucks*

Anyways, thanks for dropping by. Will post up more stuff later.

Bye :)

'Hello heart, let me in '
Travis Garland, Believe